Day 5: The Weight of the World

Posted by on Mar 23, 2010 in Blog | 1 comment

WARNING: This is my journey of seeking the Lord and what he is doing to me. It is not about you, I’m sorry. These are honest thoughts from a broken heart needing God. I’m not going to be churchy or politically correct about myself. If you are unable to deal with that, please don’t read this. Move on. It’s cool.

Matthew 11:28-30
28 Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”

So day four came and went with no blogging. The weight of the last few days finally set on me. For those who know me as missionary or writer only, well my makeup is one of mushy insides surrounded my muscled ribs so to say. I have a backbone, and shoulders, that can take a beating for sure. To do this job you must. But inside I feel lots. Poet Warrior I’d say. It usually takes me a while to realize I am stressed or tired, but the moment I really start feeling it I have pushed it too far. Last night the weight set on me and once again I had to take this burden to the couch cushions and let the Lord take them.

He did. He always will, if I let him.

I woke this morning refreshed but with things still on my mind. Not convictions today, but sadness of happenings. I gathered myself and started working on the business side of our work for the Lord. Truth is I’ve got more on my plate than I alone can carry so I have no choice but to hook myself to the stronger shoulders of God to carry the heavy load. I can’t lift this; I don’t have to. It’s his work, not mine. Light and Easy, Light and Easy. But I will admit, sometimes it takes a few times on my knees, half a Hillsong CD, and about ten scriptures repeated ten time from my lips to take my hands off of what he is trying to take. I do it though. The times things haven’t work has always been the result of me trying alone. Word to the wise: it doesn’t work. I’ve got a book I’m rewriting (my attempt to accomplish yet another dream and to not have to be on payroll from the ministry), a ministry we’re building (which is everything that’s important to Darlene and I), a family that I’m about to say goodbye to again, new bills, and the confusion of giving everything away for the third time to move to a new country away from my familiar surrounding, and last but MOST the show we’re editing. These are the things the Lord has to help me carry, then i have to stack on top of that pile the words of people that are heavier than the ocean if your not careful.

But this is day 5. Where I learn something new.

Cast it your cares upon the Lord. He will lead us into perfect peace. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. It’s not by my might or power, but by the Spirit of the Lord. I will never put more on you than you can handle. Come to me, you who are heavy laden and I will give you rest, take my yoke upon you and learn from me. Sit back and watch the LORD fight your battles. I will bless all the work of your hands. You will be fruitful in every season if you meditate and remain in my word and my love. Chill Dustan, let me handle it. It’s too much for you, don’t hurt yourself tring to do a concentration curl with the weight of the world.

Truth remains. We, and I include you here because I fell you need to hear this, WE CANNOT CARRY OUR LOADS ALONE. This world is fallen, messed up, and it’s weight it too much. We must get on out knees and spill our guys telling God how we can NOT do it without Him. Ask for help you American. I know it’s hard, but WE must. We’re not so independent as you think.

One of the main things about being set apart is realizing that you need God. It is a prerequisite. Don’t you love it. This upside down Kingdom we are a part of. Give to receive, die to live, admit weakness to get strength. Leave everything to gain everything.

“Dear Lord, I know you are the key to doing the impossible things. I need you. Show me how strong you are through my weaknesses. You Alone are my strenght. YOu alone are my world. I love you Father, my ONLY spiritual Father, my only TEACHER, my ONLY master. Thanks for EVERYTHING!”